I Thought I would let you all know that my wife had decided to end our 27 year marriage. Must have been my Elvis impersonation that was the last straw for her ….. How can I joke around at a time like this? Anyway, turns out she had made her decision several weeks before SSD 33, so it could not have been that.
Red Dot Time.
I began to feel an extreme sense of release \ relief wash over me as she explained why she was leaving the marriage. She did a good job of describing the ugly \ the Edom in me. Even though much of her perception of who I am and what I have done has some truth …. Ok, a lot of truth to it …. Or is it just lies \ exaggerations about me that Satan has convinced her of and wants me to believe as well? Scott said in the Relational Sin part of this blog “Wow, there are parts of me that are ugly. However, they do not define me!” As I penned a response to Scott, God gave me this verse:
(Zec 3:1-4)
Then he showed me Joshua the high priest standing before the angel of the LORD, and Satan standing at his right side to accuse him. The LORD said to Satan, "The LORD rebuke you, Satan! The LORD, who has chosen Jerusalem, rebuke you! Is not this man a burning stick snatched from the fire?" Now Joshua was dressed in filthy clothes as he stood before the angel. The angel said to those who were standing before him, "Take off his filthy clothes." Then he said to Joshua, "See, I have taken away your sin, and I will put rich garments on you."
I was a burning stick snatched from the fire, I was standing in filthy clothes before God and Jesus said to me: Ron, look! I have taken away your sin, and I will put rich garments on you!
I am asking that all of you please pray for my wife, that God would break her so that she would find her security and significance from God. Please pray for me that God would continue to break me.
I will not believe Satan's lies!
God is still Good!
God is still on His Throne!
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Thanks for sharing Ron. This is a difficult time for you. Rick and I had been married 29 years when we separated. After 3 years we're back together now but anywhere near what I thought we would be. Not to point the focus back on me, just letting you know I know the pain you feel. And yes, like Scott said, we are not "defined" by our ugliness. No we are clothed in Christ's righteousness. He sees us so differently. It's hard to comprehend. We see our edom, other's see our edom, but Jesus sees us as holy, a royal priesthood. How is that possible?
ReplyDeleteRight now not much makes sense. God doesn't come through like I think He will. It's all very confusing. But I stand with you in declaring, "God is still good!" or sometimes I just shout aloud, "He is the WAY, He is the TRUTH, He is the LIFE." I believe that even when my heart hurts by His (seeming)lack of response or deliverance.
We are in the process of detachment and it hurts like "near" hell.
I guess it's necessary if we want to know Him. Sure wish it weren't.
If there is any other way, someone please let me know. . .
I'll pray that you find HIM as the sweet spot in the center of your storm.
Ron - I just read your post - and although I don't have time to write too much right now - please know that I will pray... like Kinsey said - that you find HIM as the sweet spot in the center of your storm!
ReplyDeleteHi, Ron. How is it going? For some reason I did not read this at the time you wrote it. I will stop and pray right now for you and your wife.
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